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seiwas Ā· 2 months ago
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for writing game, iwaizumi + assistance <3
hope this sparks some inspo and thank you in advancee
hi there!! thanks for sending in a prompt šŸ«¶
contains: friends to lovers (ish), halloween parties, reader is dressed as catwoman, expletives, iwaizumi is thiiiiis šŸ¤ close to murdering seijoh4 (jk)
iwaizumi + assistance
this is a set-up.
iwaizumi knows he shouldn't have fucking believed anything the boys "promised" him back when they assigned him this costume.
the suit is fucking tight, spandex digging into his groins and all other crevices that definitely should be aired out after after a few hours. he's had to constantly readjust his stance almost every few minutes, the black fabric compressing his thighs and torso, significantly constricting the range of motion his shoulders and arms are typically used to. if anything else, it could double up as a back brace from how rigidly straight it's kept his posture all night.
he'll give it to makki though; he did outdo himself sourcing this year's costumesā€•this batman set looks pretty damn legit.
except for one tiny problem.
there's no fucking pee hole. it's a zip-up, zip-down one-piece situation. and that normally wouldn't be a problem, except that oikawa "accidentally" knocked over a cocktail straight into his pants, the sickeningly sweet liquid now seeping straight into the fabric and past his boxersā€•cold and sticky as it touches his skin.
and so, the problem: his pants are wet, it makes him want to fucking pee, and coincidentally, the only vacant bathroom is across the hall, at your apartment.
this is why he believes this is a set up. that, and the fact that you're dressed in an outfit strikingly similarā€•just with cat ears.
he's been asked five times in this party if you're in matching couple outfits.
it catches him off guard, flusters him because of how badly he wants to say yes. but, you're just friends, and he doesn't even think you like him that way (despite mattsun and oikawa practically begging him to confess. makki tells him he thinks you're going to do it first).
so he politely smiles and says no, but you look good, your costume clinging to you in all the right places. thank fucking god he has a cape because he's pretty sure he spent the first 30 minutes in the party hiding his boner.
"hajime, it's fine, i swear," you stand beside him in front of the conveniently locked bathroom in oikawa's apartment. from the other side of the door, he's pretty sure he hears mattsun and his girlfriend mumbling. maybe fucking? who knows. "you can just use the bathroom in my apartment."
he glances at you before closing his eyes, contemplating, before finally agreeing to you.
"okay."
if he's being honest with himself, friends is definitely an incomplete label to what you are. as oikawa's neighbor, you are conveniently around all the time; and oikawa being oikawa, the ever-social butterfly, he's somehow managed to carve a space for you in the friend group.
(never mind the fact that oikawa's sniffed him out from the moment he first introduced you.)
you were a crush, then a friend, and now you're someone he picks up from work and drives back home three times a week, because he "has to train oikawa." you don't question it, even when you both know he stays over for dinner way past the gym's open hours.
"you know where it is," you open your apartment and urge him in.
"sorry again," he turns to face you.
"yeah, yeah, just pee!" you laugh, shoving him towards the bathroom door.
getting out of the suit is manageable, and he's able to wipe off a bit of the cocktail that's leaked to the suit and his boxers just to make sure it isn't gross and sticky when he gets home later. peeing is a big relief once he gets it over with, but it's when he has to suit up again that things become difficult.
stretching out the spandex one body part at a time is a workout in itselfā€•the hardest task being when he has to pull it over his shoulders, adjusting it to fit properly over his arms and chest.
but then the zipper breaks.
and he truly thinks makki has fucked him over.
iwaizumi contemplates what to do next for a good, good while. he tries calling oikawa, only to no success every time; no way in hell is he calling mattsun in the middle of having sex. and calling makki isn't even an option; he'd never hear the end of it.
then you knock on the door, your voice soft and concerned as you ask, "hajime? you good in there?" you hit it spot on, too, "do you need help with your suit?"
iwaizumi presses his palms to his eyes. he's a rational man, straightforward and logical in thinking. there is literally no other option for him right now but to ask help from you. again.
fuck.
.
it's 30 minutes later when oikawa barges in your door, and the sight that greets him is iwaizumi in nothing but a hoodie (the hoodie you borrowed some time ago) and his boxers, with his hands on your waist as you hover your hairdryer over the crotch of his batman costumeā€•cat headpiece off and all.
"you finally got together?!"
#iwaizumi x reader#hq!! x reader#shotorus.workbook#omg i hope u enjoyed this!! i had fun thinking it up ehehe and writing it#in my mind this is set in the same universe as the halloween one i did for mattsunā€•actually its the same party HABFHBSF#some stuff about the fic: iwaizumi is hot in that costume i spared the details bc i was going to combust MYSELF#but it clings to his muscles REAAAAAAL good and there's really not a lot of padding in the costume itself#bc makki believes in iwaizumi's anatomy enough to deliver#what happened in between iwaizumi asking for help and oikawa barging in??? we may never know šŸ¤·ā€ā™€ļø kidding !#i just didnt write it in bc it would be too long but#if anyone is curious maybe i'll write it as a separate thing!#other stuff abt the fic: reader became good friends with oikawa first bc neighbors but then oikawa admittedly wanted to play matchmaker#so he invited reader a ton to their group things so he could introduce em to iwaizumi HAHA and iwaizumi crushed hard#they become close pretty quickly too hence why reader calls him hajime HAHAH and they hang out even outside of the group#theres definitely something like they text a lot and stuff but neither of them are sure of how the other feels so they arent admitting#reader has borrowed a hoodie from him tho#(aka the one he's wearing in the blurb bc it's the only article of clothing that fits him in reader's apt)#also they figured they'd just kill time by drying iwaizumi's costume bc for sure they couldn't chuck it in the dryer so the next best thing#was to just use a dryer and spot dry it#makki did source most of the costumes! except mattsun's and his gf's#uhhh they go back to the party afterwards but reader literally had to makeshift lock iwaizumi's costume with safety pins HAHA#i guess his muscles just be too popping šŸ¤·ā€ā™€ļø#fvntybomb#ask#rep#ask game answered
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worstloki Ā· 9 months ago
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there is a difference between being born to a throne, maliciously vying for a throne, stealing a throne, and having a throne thrust upon you when you are already in the midst of an identity crisis. And I fear Loki's place in the line of succession has people unable to differentiate between any of these
#you can't really argue he planned the extent of Thor's downfall#that was all Odin#Loki didn't force Thor to invade Jotunheim he isn't even the one who gave Thor the idea -- Thor did that all on his own!#that he was doing waswasa @ thor didn't help but wasn't really crime worthy on its own#Thor himself took time convincing the other warriors to be okay with the trip despite the treason and danger involved#like. what. Thor can't differentiate good advice from bad and is emotionally volatile and reckless and that's Loki's fault?#THOR was the one who got them past Heimdall too#the entire ordeal inadvertently showed off the favouritism Thor was receiving in comparison to Loki#even though Loki was the one supposedly so easily influencing Thor to such an extent#call Thor a puppet the way he--wait. no. that sounds weird. uhhhhh#you get the point#people will claim Loki was all up in there rearranging Thor's mental processes to cause his downfall#when really it was Loki doing the bare minimum instigation and watching things only devolve from there#because Thor WAS reckless and immature ?? and he WAS quick to anger and enjoyed exerting his power with violence ??#Loki didn't STEAL THE THRONE FROM THOR he literally just is implied to undermine the coronation#that's not even confirmed but we assume it's true that he let the frost giants in near the casket etc.#Loki has his own actual crimes that he did against Thor and hugging his bro's arm and saying 'you're soooooo strong and correct' was not on#even if you manage to argue Loki was cheering Thor on for the invasion (he wasn't) it was clearly to dob Thor in with Odin#which he did when he had some guard inform Odin#that Odin's chosen punishment was for Thor's disobedience aside stop blaming Loki for the damage ODIN inflicted on him#focus on Loki making up lies to Thor about how Odin died instead like at least Loki DID SOMETHING for that#you can even ascribe as evil a motive as you want there bc Loki was slipping fr#twirling his hair and telling Thor he's smarter about the realm's safety than the king was on the normal scale#you want to talk morals go look at how eager Thor was to invade mass destroy and massacre in the other realm#and expected Odin to 'finish them off! together!' bc he was power high on whatever bloodlust pheromones battle apparently imitates for him#sigh. this is why you can't have nice things Thor. no Loki you're barely any better. sit down. have a cookie.
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souenkun Ā· 7 days ago
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Judging from these panels, would it mean that there's no other yorishima exorcist that's still alive (since natori said that the yorishima family "was once" a big name, past tense) in the canon timeline, and that the yorishima we know probably ended his family's exorcism business for good by retiring himself? If so, was the reason tied to the youkai living in his left arm, or is there another cause? And when exactly did he retireā€” was it before or during seiji and shuuichi's high school days, which was why his left arm appeared with the thick bandages when he gave them the loquats in the anime, but he still lived in the estate during that time, or was it after the two became legal adults, which lined up somewhat with him moving into his forest home, abandoning his family estate in favor of living in isolation?
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And, speaking of retirement, I wonder if we'll ever know why midorikawa told us that the takis were "famous" (which presumedly meant they were strong enough to be well-known) as occult diviners, since tooru herself only ever mentioned what their previous family business entails, and never about their status in the exorcism community? We don't really need this extra bit if she wanted to further establish how tooru has an aptitude for spell-casting, either. Again, there's another "strong" family (whose members are still alive in canon) that went into retirement, but did the taki family lost their power because the ability to see (if they were needed for diviners) disappeared for at least the last three generations (if we assumed that tooru and isamu's parents couldn't see youkai too), or was it due to another reason? How close was shinichiro (tooru and isamu's grandpa) to the matobas that even the current clan head came to pay his respects during his sixth death anniversary; was his relationship with seiji's father strictly resolved around exorcism business, or was anything else involved? Does tooru herself doesn't fully understand the prowess her family once had, hence why seiji was the one who told takashi (and us readers) about it? What would this tiny bit of lore mean for tooru with it revealed this late into the manga, when tooru herself only talked sparsely about her ancestors in previous chapters?
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rgbfactsdaily Ā· 2 months ago
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Proton packs can be set to explode, with multiple ways to do it.
First is a button on the back of the pack. This one produced a very big fiery explosion, but it was hooked up to the Ghost Bomb so that probably amplified the explosion past what it normally would be.
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Secondly is a button on the thrower handle. The thrower button has a safety covering it that you flip up (the yellow switch that they usually use to activate their throwers), and an extra button to arm it (the red button) before you can start the self destruct (the black and yellow button). The other two methods donā€™t seem to have any sort of safety. We don't see this method blow up, but as the destruct sequence is initiating, it produces sparks from the throwers.
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Or thirdly a switch on the side of the pack. They don't really show this one well, the vampire that sets this one off is touching the trap when they say he flips the switch, maybe something with the red part next to the trap? This produced a decent sized explosion for being just one pack, and not amplified like the packs that self destructed with the bomb attached were.
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The two buttons each take around two minutes before the pack explodes, with the switch itā€™s about ten seconds. (The Boogeyman Cometh, Ragnarok and Roll, and No One Comes to Lupusville)
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cent-scratchnsniff Ā· 3 months ago
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it was just going to be a few warmup doodles but then she infected the rest of the page like the ever eternal and spreading spores. hod!!! hod. hod :)
#lobotomy corporation#lobcorp#hod#hod lobcorp#lobotomy corp spoilers#I GUESS i almost forgot i drew her box form#lobcorp spoilers#and michelle actually. ..#both very tiny. itty bitty. microscopic#other sephirah there too as normal. i cant have her alone. and Angelina as well on the top patting her#i have a hard time fully capturing her for some reason. in my mind. maybe its because is the disconnected period!!! mentally#she genuinely wishes to care and be kind yet theres a dissonance with what she does..? or how it ends up being taken or what she does to en#up bringing those actions into reality. she can be forceful? wanting to have employees attend therapy sessions and meetings for suppression#tactics. which i think is also something the safety team is incharge of iirc. so that means shes doing way more that what she needs to on#her job as a sephirah. just for the sake of employees#she really does care as shes one of the only to Directly attempt to change their circumstances and quality of life and health#sure chesed doesnt punish employees when they dont do their work assigned or stress them out with work#but he doesnt actively push to attempt to make changes to aid employees besides the research perks which is to the manager#yesod IS right next to her and does also genuinely care but when it comes to employees hes distant at best when it comes to them and the#way he tries to protect them is by enforcing rules but he doesnt really create or attempt to help them like hod does#yesod is sort of a passive? way of doing it. yes he doesn make a push to enforce said rules but he doesnt make new ones. just follows what#is already there in place. hod tries to make new ways and not just for the safety of people like how yesod's has them physically fine and#not letting them over a certain threshold of mental corruption but she tries to have a program to Directly Address such a thing#its born out of care but the genuine worry of being a good person and her naivety ends up having it do more harm than good#sure there may be some employees that actually like and find it useful but so many are just accepting to their fate of Dying to where#her care seems pointless. shes a sephirah and to them a literal metal box why would they go ahead and feel bad for what an 'ai' is feeling#as she is interrupting their free time in the company#which is rude. and shit. iirc the counseling is compulsory but people go because shes a sephirah and their superior. the thought was there#but again it comes off wrong and ends up not working because shes their superior in the end#EEK!!! yeah... hod. the hod. there is WAY more but i can't fit it all here and i already typed enough
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neversetyoufree Ā· 1 year ago
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God it just hit me.
Names are power in VnC. We call the piece of the world formula that defines a vampire their "true name." Learning and altering a vampire's true name gives you near-absolute power over them. Vanitas hides his old name as part of his "Vanitas" personaā€”a defense mechanism to hide his vulnerable self.
And names are an axis of discrimination too. The main way we've been examining discrimination against the dhampirs is through the lens of vampires refusing to call them by their names. And Luna, the perennial outsider, seems not to have been given a real name. They certainly didn't have a name that they liked or identified with for most of their life.
So with all that context, even more than it might be in another series, Teacher's whole name shtick becomes such an insane power move. He changes his name constantly and will brutally punish anyone that gets it wrong. Nobody has the power that would come from knowing whatever his first/true name was. He has the physical and social power to punish and correct anyone that doesn't call him what he wants to be called. He is in complete control of how people address him, or at least close to complete control, which is such a big deal within this story.
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jtl-fics Ā· 2 years ago
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Fluent Freshman - Part 19
PREVIOUS
Thereā€™s a couple things about FF that might be good to know at this point.
1. There are few things in the world he hates doing more than asking for clarification or admitting he doesnā€™t understand / know something. The thought of going up to someone and admitting that he hasnā€™t perfectly comprehended the situation upon the first explanation is something makes his stomach twist like heā€™d just eaten Mango-Habanero ice cream.
He has figured out his own math theorems in the pursuit of not having to ask the math teacher to explain he doesnā€™t understand. He got lost in an Ikea once for over 6 grueling hours where he considered making a home there and living among the display rooms until his grandma grabbed him by the ear and dragged him to safety (the food court) and let him regain his strength (eat Swedish meatballs). He, to this day, is not sure about one of his foreign language friendā€™s names (how embarrassing he just keeps waiting for someone else to say it but they go by some insane nickname).
So he has become a master of piecing shit together on his own. He sometimes gets it wrong (Andrew, god how embarrassing) but for the most part 8 times out of 10 he can get to the right answer if he just has a couple pieces to work with. No one had ever actually explained to him how Exy works and he was too embarrassed to ask after the third week of practice in middle school so he just pieced together what he was and was not allowed to do through the art of trial and error. Heā€™s even mostly pieced out the rules for the other positions.
So with the information he has gotten through people being bound and determined to talk in foreign languages in front of him he has an idea about the tenuous situation some of the older Foxes find themselves in.
Heā€™s heard Kevin Day and Jean Moreau talk in French.
Heā€™s heard that the anxiety in both of their voices as they talked about their futures and owing 80% of their salaries to the ā€˜Moriyamasā€™ and how nervous they were about getting on professional teams or else theyā€™d be killed.
Captain Neil and Andrew are not always using Russian to talk dirty.
Heā€™s heard Andrew soothe Captain Neilā€™s worries about playing for a professional team. Heā€™s heard Captain Neil mention that at least ā€˜Ichirouā€™ would likely just kill him and not make a game out of it like his father did.
Organized Crime might have more to do with Exy than FF had originally thought.
(He had thought it. Plenty of times he had thought it but his Gran had warned him that he was overthinking things. That he wasnā€™t playing a sport invented by the Mafia. That he had caffeinated coffee instead of decaf. ā€œItā€™s going to be okay sweetie. Just take a deep breath.ā€)
This leads into the second thing you should know at this point.
2. Ā Before he had signed with Wymack he had known the broad strokes of Captain Neilā€™s life. There had been a lot of news articles about it and Gran (bless her) loved trashy gossip magazines.
After he had signed with the Foxes he had done a bit of a deep dive on as many of their controversies as he could find. Thereā€™d been things from brawls on the court (worrying), player overdoses (concerning), a straight up MURDER (Oh god), and the very public breaking of the King of Exyā€™s arm resulting in his suicide (Warranted, that wacko was going to take off Captain Neilā€™s HEAD.)
But the thing that had made him actually a little bit, dare he admit, excited to go to Palmetto was the fact that Captain Neil was there.
For someone who froze for almost a decade, who just took it and didnā€™t have the balls to even react? Neil Josten is an inspiration.
This is someone who got away, who lived a life completely unlike FFā€™s, someone who knew how to run and more impressively someone who learned how to FIGHT. Captain Neil was being hunted but he still ripped people to shreds in interviews. Captain Neil was probably more scared of the Butcher than FF had been of anything in his entire life but Captain Neil was way braver than FF could ever hope to be.
Captain Neil was taken and tortured but he still fought. FF had seen the scars and Captain Neil is right to wear them proudly (though based on some conversations he has unfortunately overheard he is sure Andrew may have a role in Neilā€™s positive feelings about them).
FF had thought that he was being lead to his death down in a basement of a club (Donā€™t cringe. Donā€™t cringe. Donā€™t cringe. Donā€™t-) and he just trailed right behind the two of them without even an illusion of a fight.
Neil Abram Josten was a bit of a personal hero.
Heā€™s proud to call him Captain Neil. He wishes Andrew hadnā€™t been there when Greg had mentioned wanting autographs because FF wants an autograph from Captain Neil but now Andrew has probably mentioned it to Neil.
Long story short, FF had looked into a lot of details on Captain Neilā€™s case.
Including two of the Butcherā€™s top men who were still on the loose.
Romero Malcolm and Jackson Plank.
He keeps his presence low but no matter how many times he blinks the man grumbling in Italian next to him continues to be Romero Malcolm.
Moreover Romero Malcolm continues to grumble about the fact that he is having a hard time finding ā€˜Nathanielā€™ and that heā€™ll have to grab one of ā€˜The Wesninski bratā€™s friendsā€™ to draw him out.
FF is a recently confirmed friend of Captain Neil.
FF who is standing next to this man, with his dick out, and trying to remain as invisible as possible.
After two shakes (Yes he was watching but only because he had to! He wonders briefly if he goes to the FBI if they would accept a description of Romero Malcolmā€™s penis for the wanted poster? Probably not but it is BURNED into his retinas.)
He watches as Romero tucks, zips, and then bypasses the sink entirely.
FF shivers at how unhygienic that is. Who RAISED him?
The door shuts and FF needs to get out of here ASAP but his hands are shaking with the sudden adrenaline of ā€™One of the FBIā€™s Most Wanted just took a piss next to me and is looking for me friendā€™. He pulls his phone from his pocket and ducks into one of the stalls. Even if thereā€™s no door itā€™ll at least FEEL a little safer, a little more private. He needs to warn Neil, Warn Andrew, and warn-
The door to the bathroom SLAMS open and music blares in (palms are sweaty, knees weak, arms are heavy-) and his phone slips out of his hands and into the toilet. There are footsteps coming towards him and FF digs deep.
Heā€™s in ultra stealth mode. He is the wall behind the wallpaper. Mantis shrimp can only dream of the color he becomes, the United States military have the CIA on the look out for him because heā€™s fallen off all conventional forms of radar and tracking.
He is a bargain fruit platter on a dessert table at a kidā€™s birthday party.
He is ULTRA stealth.
Romeroā€™s gaze glides over him.
Then the man leaves (STILL DID NOT WASH HIS HANDS).
His heart is hammering in his chest but he manages to reach down and grab his phone. Well, Coach Wymack had gotten the extended warranty at least. (ā€œDo you know what these fuckers do to phones? Josten crushed his last year in a fight with the Baseball team captain.ā€)
His phoneā€™s extended dip into the toilet water had not done it any favors in working properly.
Well fuck.
He wipes his phone down the best he can. He wipes his phone down with some toilet paper before cramming it into his pocket (Sorry Nicky, heā€™ll wash the toilet water pants if they survive).
He sees a flyer on the wall of the bathroom and starts to think of a plan.
He rushes out of the bathroom (he still washes his hands because he will not have something in common with a man on the FBIā€™s most wanted list and he just dipped his hand into a CLUB TOILET) and clocks Nickyā€™s wild arm movements and WORSE clocks Romero just 10 clubbers away.
He sees Romeroā€™s eyes lock onto Nicky and a smile that terrifies him.
Heā€™s out of Ultra Stealth Mode even if every atom in his body wants to run.
He is so stressed and panicked that he has gone beyond his bodyā€™s ability to process that so all that is left is determination. Heā€™s got a head full of a half-baked plan, a hand going to his pocket, a second hand on the only ā€˜weaponā€™ he has on him, and a stomach full of acid.
Heā€™s pulling his phone out of his pocket before he can really let himself think about it and walking up next to where Romero is standing. He holds his toilet water phone up to his ear and does the one weird social anxiety thing that he had never done before.
He pretends to be on a phone call.
ā€œHey Captain Neil,ā€ he says and in the corner of his eye he can see Romeroā€™s gaze shift from Nicky (surrounded by an adoring public, covered in sweat and therefore difficult to grab - a difficult target) to himself (alone, shorter, and probably looking like heā€™s about to pass out). ā€œYeah I think Iā€™m going to take a break outside after I grab quick drink and then a water at the bar.ā€ He says because he has to be the easier target and he has to go to the bar. ā€œYeah, yeah, okay Iā€™ll mention it to that bartender guy.ā€ He says and pretends to hang up.
He turns and he walks towards the bar and feels his pulse in his throat go to the beat of the music (success is my only motherfucking option, failureā€™s not).
He only knows about the alley because in the car ride to Sweetieā€™s Nicky had mentioned that he wouldnā€™t let FFā€™s first time be out there. He had been embarrassed but it was the only way he knew to get Romero out of the club and away from where he could hurt Captain Neil or anyone else in the pursuit of that.
He spots the bartender who had gotten the drinks for their table and his mind completely blanks on the name but the bartender sees him and smiles. ā€œOh youā€™re Neil and Andrewā€™s new friend! What can I help you with? I thought you were-ā€œ
ā€œHi, yes I am Captain Neil and Andrewā€™s friend.ā€ He says a little loudly because he can feel Romero behind him and he does NOT want the man to know anything about where Captain Neil was.
ā€œCaptain Neil? Oh wow thatā€™s adorable.ā€ The man gushes. ā€œWhat can I help you with? I wonā€™t ask for ID for one of their friends.ā€ He winks.
ā€œIā€™d like to order the uhā€¦ā€ he tries to remember the exact drink name from the flyer, ā€œā€¦the deluxe chocolate martini?ā€ He asks and knows he got it right when the bartenderā€™s expression shifts ever so slightly.
ā€œOh yeah, how do Andrew and Neil feel about that?ā€ He asks and oh great a coded conversation. Itā€™s nice to actually be having a real one of these for once instead of just perceiving normal conversations to have hidden meanings.
ā€œThey donā€™t know. They probably prefer that I order it instead of Nicky or Aaron.ā€ He lets his eyes dart to the wide where he believes Romero is watching him.
ā€œI donā€™t know if thatā€™s true.ā€ The bartender says, ā€œNicky knows how to handle a drink and Aaronā€™s not a lightweight either.ā€ He adds.
FF struggles to find a coded way to say ā€˜Itā€™s not that someoneā€™s hitting on me too hard like the flyer mentioned. Itā€™s that thereā€™s a mafia hitman in your club.ā€™
Finally after a moment, ā€œItā€™s not the usual kind of drink they get.ā€ He tries and the bartender looks confused by the statement, dammit. He struggles to find a different way to say it before the bartender smiles.
ā€œYā€™know youā€™re really cute.ā€ He reaches under the bar top and grabs a piece of paper and a pen. ā€œHow about you write down your number for me cutie? We can meet up sometime.ā€ He says. ā€œIā€™ll get started on that chocolate martini for you.ā€ He says.
HE COULD KISS THIS MAN.
ā€œIā€™d like that.ā€ He says.
He writes out a quick message on the small note paper.
ā€˜Armed. After Neil. Looked at Nicky. Iā€™m going to the back alley. Phone is dead.ā€™
The bartender comes back and looks at his note. ā€œWeā€™re out of chocolate martini mix, can I get you something-ā€œ He hopes the club lighting obscures how pale the man got, ā€œsomething else?ā€ He asks and FF can SEE his pulse.
ā€œCan I just get some water then?ā€ He asks.
The bartender nods and pulls up his phone and hopefully is dialing the police and hands FF a water. His hand grabs hold of FFā€™s ā€œYou donā€™t need to go out into the alley. You could hang in the backroom with me?ā€ He offers.
There really are some kind people in the world.
ā€œI think itā€™s better if Iā€™m not in here for a bit.ā€ He says back and honestly he needs this kindness and he has a spare bit of courage, ā€œWhatā€™s your name by the way? Sorry I missed it.ā€ He says.
The bartender swallows, ā€œItā€™s Roland.ā€ He says.
ā€œThanks Roland.ā€ He twists the cap off of the water bottle and takes a sip.
He turns and pretends not to notice how Romero is trying to be inconspicuous pretending to be on his phone.
He makes his way over to the alley door and notices that Romero is tracking his movements but is not following him like he did to the bar.
His heart is pounding and he canā€™t BELIEVE heā€™s doing this. He wants to run, wants to hide somewhere, wants to become imperceptible butā€¦butā€¦
He opens the door to the alley as the bass of the remixed song finishes.
(You can do anything you set your mind to, man)
He lets the door slam behind him and he is alone in the alley.
He was not expecting a van to come to a screeching halt in front of the entrance and for a different face to appear climbing out of the car.
Jackson Plank.
FF looks at the ugly smile on the man as he walks towards him with a knife in hand.
Okay now what genius?
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5/26/23: EDITED. Canā€™t believe I forgot to put the Captain in front of Neilā€™s name on the meme. Iā€™m blaming the accidental early awakening.
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Lillyndra it worked this time!!!
#Fluent Freshman AU#Is it a songfic chapter if it's only 3 lines? Experts aren't sure#Did I listen to lose yourself a lot while writing this chapter? Perhaps#If Nora mentioned something about Jackson or Romero in her extras I did not read it#Also gonna be honest here and state that I forgot the likely year that AFTG happened in and this is happening in 2010#So I guess this AU also involves a slight time shift#Andrew and Neil may have gotten lost in one another's eyes a bit down in the speakeasy#Really they're just being polite to get all of their PDA out of the way while FF is taking what might be the piss of a lifetime.#(They have no idea how accurate that might be)#Andrew is all set to kiss one of his favorite of Neil's freckles (yes he has ordered them from favorite to lesser favorite)#Then his phone goes off#He looks and it's Roland#Andrew: WTF is Roland trying to call me?#Nicky is busy being the Dancing Queen. If someone plays ABBA he will absolutely scream rn#I had considered a whole sequence of FF trying to get Nicky and Aaron to the safety of the backroom in Eden's#And Nicky just keeps reappearing on the dancefloor while FF is looking for Aaron#I was gonna use that simpsons meme where Moe throws out Barney and then Barney is just right back in the bar#But it got a little too crazy#But just know in this AU Nicky is canonically an excellent escape artist#Maybe Erik went through a bit of a magician phase and Nicky was DELIGHTED to be asked to be his assistant#Maybe that's how they got together#The inherent ROMANCE of magician and assistant#I don't remember if they ever really said in the books or nora's content#If I'm rambling because I forgot to shut off my alarm (Memorial Day 4-day weekend baby)#The fate of FF's phone may have been caused by some slight anger towards my own#RIP FF's Wymack phone (July 2010 - November 2010)#AFTG#AFTG AU#Andreil#FF - Pt.19
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sesamestreep Ā· 2 months ago
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ā€œrequiem for methuselahā€ crazy ass episode for many reasons. Kirk is being fully insane, like I donā€™t actually think, even controlling for how quickly and easily and readily he seems to fall in love with anybody at the slightest encouragement, that heā€™d go that bonkers for that android woman he just met while everyone on the ship was this close to dying, but thatā€™s neither here nor there, because in the background youā€™ve got an equally but much more subtly insane episode for Spock, who extremely uncharacteristically admits to experiencing an emotion (or nearly experiencing, whatever) and that emotion is ENVY of all things. And then spends the rest of the episode warning Kirk away from this new love interest (something that doesnā€™t usually happen, even when Kirk has very inadvisable love interests) and is, in the end, the person who accurately identifies that Raynaā€™s competing love for Kirk and Flint is ultimately what overwhelms and destroys her with the most killer line in maybe history???
And then to wrap it up we get an equally uncharacteristic sort of denouement scene (TOS loooves to cut an episode off right after the actual climax, leaving little time for falling action or character reflection, or to stick a sitcom-y button on the end where the gang all smiles and laughs at their misadventures and everything resets to zero, which is not a criticism, itā€™s just the style of that era of tv, honestly) where Kirk is literally miserable over Raynaā€™s death (again, kind of unusual for a lot of his love interests, he tends to be able to move on pretty quickly) and Spock goes to see him and he falls asleep right in front of Spock (also odd) and then when Bones comes in to give the final word on Flint, Spock waves him off from waking the Captain (tender) and Bones gives him that awful speech about how itā€™s sadder that Spock canā€™t even imagine the love Kirk felt for this random android woman than it is that Kirk lost her in the first place (debatable but also rude) and how his great tragedy is that he canā€™t love at all like they can and how all he wishes is that Kirk could forget about all of this and move on. AND THEN, to have Bones leave and Spock go over to Kirk and very gently, tenderly, reluctantly touch him and put his hand to his forehead and tell him to forget and HAVE THAT BE THE END OF THE EPISODE??? What am I supposed to do with that??
#ā€˜the joys of love made her human. the agonies of love destroyed herā€™ hUH. What a cool line.#hope it doesnā€™t become some sort ofā€¦thesis statement for you or something SPOCK#listen my number one beef with the way they write bones is that they just make him completely mischaracterize everything to suit the plot#this man is not an idiot he KNOWS Spock has emotions and just suppresses them#youā€™re going to tell me heā€™s been on that ship with Spock for years and thinks he feels no love whatsoever for anyone???#like even after what happened in the empath and in that episode where McCoy thought he was dying#he knows Spock loves people!!! COME ON#does he really just mean romantic love?? thatā€™s so boring WRITE HIM BETTER#also theyā€™re banking a lot on people remembering what the Vulcan mind meld is for that last bit#like I know it comes up a lot butā€¦this is 1968 or whatever. They donā€™t have this shit on dvd to rewatch#youā€™re counting on really dedicated fan memory here or on people catching reruns#because otherwise it just looks like Spock waiting to be alone to touch Kirk as tenderly as possible and pray he forgets this woman#truly whatā€™s going on#anyway I kind of hated this episode#like quite frankly there was too much going on#are androids people? would Kirk fall in love that hard that quickly and choose it over the safety of his crew?#why wasnt the illness ravaging the crew a bigger deal??#they didnā€™t even get into WHY flint was immortal#he was just a regular human and apparently the ONLY one who was granted immortality by the earthā€™s atmosphere#leaving aside the very creepy and very early born sexy yesterday trope going on throughout#but it was a really good Spock episode if you justā€¦.dont look at anything elseā€¦.#the writer for this one also did Day of the Dove and Mirror Mirror which explains a LOT#two other episodes that are interesting for the character dynamics but really chaotic plot wise#anyway imagine saying to Spockā€™s face that he has no idea what love can drive a man to do#one has to laugh#tos#star trek#as alwaysā€¦. Iā€™m sorry that Iā€™m Like This
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good-beanswrites Ā· 10 days ago
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john x fuuta ?šŸ‘‰šŸ‘ˆ or 090309
I love the dynamic between them all, thank you for the request! I went with an earlier meeting for them (well, one of the first times Fuuta's aware of speaking with John, at least). As much as I joke about Fuuta being starstruck by his strength in the attack, I tried to take a more serious route for the "something to rely on" vibe.
Johnā€™s eyes flicked over Fuuta, sprawled out on his bedding and looking up expectantly.
ā€œMan, you look like shit.ā€
Fuuta scowled deeper. ā€œI asked for the reason youā€™re here in the middle of the fucking night, not your opinion.ā€
ā€œThat is the reason I came.ā€
Somehow, amid all the other things he had to worry about given the horror of the past few days and exile that followed, Mikoto had still found the time to lose sleep over Fuutaā€™s condition. John had always liked the guy, but he wasnā€™t in the business of watching over people he didnā€™t truly care about. He didnā€™t know what Mikoto saw in him to cause such an overreaction.
Though, with the futon dragged to the bars of the cell, and bathing him in the dim light of the guardā€™s tower, it was becoming clear that Mikotoā€™s concern was indeed warranted. Fuuta appeared deathly. The fresh injuries had been bandaged, but there were stains where blood was beginning to seep through. His eye ā€“ the one that had survived the ordeal ā€“ was bloodshot and rimmed with dark bags. His hair was as tangled as the rumpled hoodie it poked out of.
Fuuta was still staring in anticipation. It took John a moment to understand why.Ā 
ā€œYou recognize me.ā€
ā€œNo shit. Mikoto came in here like a fumbling idiot earlier today. He wanted to make sure I was okay or whatever. Like Iā€™d be okay after what happened!ā€ He paused, a clanging from someone elseā€™s cell briefly distracting him. ā€œBut youā€¦ the way you carry yourselfā€¦ itā€™s different.ā€
ā€œNot that different. Iā€™m here for the same reason.ā€
The plan was simple. Once Fuuta slept, Mikoto would relax, and everyone would be happy. If it turned out to be his injuries keeping him awake, John didnā€™t mind crushing Fuutaā€™s pride and explaining his weakness to the doctor to get more painkillers. If it was noisy neighbors, heā€™d teach one of those girls a lesson the following day. If the problem was just plain insomnia, well, Johnā€™s swinging arm was still completely functional...
ā€œI just want to make sure youā€™re sleeping.ā€
ā€œDonā€™t tell me youā€™re as disgustingly sentimental as him.ā€
Johnā€™s expression twitched. He didnā€™t appreciate the condescension. That was Mikotoā€™s most admirable trait, after all ā€“ offering help to others even when he was falling apart himself. He was so selfless, so self-sacrificial. It was no wonder John felt compelled to do the same for him. But Fuutaā€¦
ā€œUgh, heā€™s always trying to be buddy-buddy with everyone around here, it makes me sick. Nice words donā€™t do shit. Look where his friendship with Kotoko got him, eh? Thatā€™s what these fools still donā€™t understand ā€“ you need to face these things head-on.ā€
ā€œOi, donā€™t be hard on me just for caring.ā€ He didnā€™t say it as any sort of gentle encouragement; it was a command, and Fuuta understood. He snapped his attention away from where heā€™d been peering around the bars. ā€œThe world needs more people with that kindness. That optimistic view of life, of others, no matter what ā€“ itā€™s why Iā€™ll do everything I can to save me.ā€
Silence stretched after the intense comment. Fuuta was looking away again, and John couldnā€™t read him. When he did speak, his voice came out more defeated than expected.
ā€œTch. Well. Not all of us have that luxury.ā€
ā€œOf what?ā€
ā€œOf you.ā€
His eyebrows raised.
Cheeks reddening, Fuuta hurried to add, ā€œI mean someone to have your back like that. I wish I could be half as relaxed as that, but I canā€™t afford to let my guard down. I need to be strong myself, I donā€™t have anyone else to take care of my problems for me.ā€
It hit him suddenly, that everything came down to that. Relief washed over him, now that a clear, easy, (and nonviolent) solution had presented itself.
ā€œWhat if you did? I could take over your little sentry duty for the night.ā€
ā€œW-what do you ā€“?ā€
He gestured to where Fuuta was laying. ā€œNo need to play dumb. Youā€™ve been keeping an eye on everything, even the other side of the guardā€™s tower. The sounds from around cell eight have caught your attention. Youā€™re positioned so you can see cell six, but havenā€™t moved all the way over, because cell ten has easiest access from the right.ā€
ā€œThe others would say itā€™s pointless, or that theyā€™re handling it. Iā€™m not buying it, though. I donā€™t care if they say itā€™s crazy of me to do.ā€
ā€œI thinkā€¦ā€ Johnā€™s posture softened. ā€œI think itā€™s very selfless of you.ā€
He was constantly amazed at Fuutaā€™s tendency to react to everything as if it were some world-shattering statement just told to him.
ā€œSo?ā€ He prodded before Fuutaā€™s expression could grow any more wide-eyed. ā€œHow about it?ā€
Ā ā€œI meanā€¦ they told me about the attacksā€¦ what you didā€¦ā€
John set his jaw. No matter how many times it had happened in the past few days, it still stung to see how quickly people turned against him because of the fight. He thought they all had come to terms with each otherā€™s capabilities for violence, but as usual, the moment he showed his true face, the world turned against him.
Of course Fuuta could never relax knowing such a violent and unpredictable person was sitting right beside him through the night. It was a miracle he hadnā€™t panicked immediately at the sight of yet another cold, towering figure appearing at his door in the middle of the night.
John stretched his right arm across his chest. It looked like his original solution still stood. Fuuta said problems should be faced head-on. Surely heā€™d understand this was for his own good.
ā€œā€¦Yeah, okay.ā€ Fuuta gave a decisive nod. He beckoned with a jerk of his head. ā€œI trust you.ā€
ā€œI ā€“ā€ John blinked. ā€œWhat?ā€
ā€œYou understand me. You understand what it takes to be in a place like this.ā€ His gaze flit away momentarily. ā€œYouā€™re incredibly strong. Youā€™re prepared, and have good instincts, and your confidence is ā€“" Noticing how intently John was listening, he interrupted himself to bark, ā€œbut donā€™t think I couldnā€™t handle this on my own! Itā€™s only because you offered, and itā€™s a smart move. Iā€™ll just sleep for a bit, we can take shifts. Wake me in three hours, okay?ā€
ā€œFine by me.ā€ A little lying was definitely better than what else heā€™d had in mind.
Fuuta moved his futon over a few feet so John could settle into his carefully chosen spot on the ground. Everything was all set to begin keeping watch, until a new sound rose up to drown out the other noises in the panopticon ā€“ soft snoring from beside him.
He glanced over in disbelief at the instantaneous security Fuuta had sunk into. All the tension had melted away from his face and shoulders. He lay completely at peace.
John had achieved his goal. He should be celebrating. Instead, he couldnā€™t help heaving a heavy sigh.
How did he end up with two self-destructive idiots to watch over?
#milgram#john milgram#fuuta kajiyama#0309#030909#mikoto is mentioned to care deeply for fuuta but not tagging him#ive had this idea forever and it was so difficult putting it into a concise flow for some reason? so im super happy with how it came out!#originally i wanted actual dialogue about it being their first meeting but it took the focus too off topic#i imagine john has fronted before without anyone knowing he was watching and learning about them#fuuta would be freaking out about that being creepy and rude (isnt it polite to introduce yourself when you first meet someone?)#but john was glad for fuutas treatment back then#(and he also reminds fuuta that his own 'watching others from the safety of anonymity' habits werent that different...)#i know i wrote this as a change in johns mind about fuuta but i like the thought that he came in the first place because he already cared#then seeing how much fuuta trusts him (especially after everyone - including mikoto himself - turns against him) really makes him fall hard#also the fact that fuuta is the only one to see his strength as something helpful instead of scary#in my original draft john comes right at the curfew bell and locks himself into fuutas cell much to his dismay#but the cells locking got rid of the point of the fic lmao so fuuta had to be a little nicer in this version and let him stay willingly šŸ˜‚#i liked the very purposeful show of trust though <3#i also love how much they relate to one another#john thinks fuuta has to deal with the same issues as him but also thinks he and mikoto are very similar in their care for others#mikoto thinks john and fuuta are similar in their approach to problems and communication and protection#meanwhile fuuta believes hes more like john when in reality hes more like mikoto - leading him to connect well with both#anyway sorry for rambling asdfsdf i hope you enjoyed! thanks for the ask!!#drabbles
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dazais-guardian-angel Ā· 22 days ago
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Well, at least Fukuzawa got his wish granted, I guess.... he's finally inside Fukuchi <3
#bungou stray dogs#bsd spoilers#bsd 120.5#please laugh i know i made myself laugh.... if only to keep from crying lol#the oocification of Fukuzawa will be studied in the history books for years to come#that's not my fukuzawa...... that's his discount twin fucksack#because his dick is so far up the ass of his dead pathetic dumbass crusty ex boyfriend it's not even funny#he is dickriding that fucker HARD#and here i thought the FANDOM woobified fukuchi out the wazoo. but oh my god no fukuzawa himself has them all beat this chapter#man is coco for cocopuffs and babying that grown-ass man like he's 5#it's truly pathetic and depressing to see i'm just beyond words#'you deceived him by keeping quiet the issues that would plague a union of mankind' NO??? LITERALLY ANYONE WITH A BRAIN WOULD KNOW#THAT THAT WOULD NEVER FUCKING WORK???? THAT IT'S THE STUPIDEST MOST NAIVE PLAN AND VIEW OF THE WORLD IMAGINABLE????#WHY ARE YOU ACTING LIKE THIS IS A TODDLER INSTEAD OF A GROWN-ASS SOLDIER WITH YEARS OF MILITARY EXPERIENCE#Fyodor feels like the only one at this point that hasn't truly lost the plot in all this...... the only one with a goddamn brain#I HATE THAT I HAVE TO AGREE WITH HIM!!!!!!!!! I HATE THAT IT FELT SO CATHARTIC!!!!!!!!!!!!#and i hate even more that the series clearly doesn't want us to agree with him and instead believe that fukuzawa is still right#even though he was spouting the most naive braindead bullshit imaginable that early series Fukuzawa would NEVER SAY#WHAT ABOUT YOUR CHILDREN BRO??? WHY DO YOU CARE MORE ABOUT DEFENDING THE HONOR OF THAT CRUSTY MF THAN#THE SAFETY OF YOUR KIDS????#WHERE DID ALL YOUR INTELLIGENCE GO#i fucking hated the writing ever since fukuchi's plan/motives were first revealed and it was played completely straight (and gay lol)#but to hear fukuzawa actually come out and defend that ridiculous bs is just.......... again i have no words#it's insane. what happened. what happened to you fukuzawa. all i can do is laugh it's so sad it's so stupid. I WAS CRINGING SO BAD.#and was so glad when he finally died so he finally SHUT THE FUCK UP. i hate it here. i miss when BSD was good so bad man šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­#it would be one thing if it felt like he's so deep in grief that he's completely deluded himself that fukuchi was right and had pure motive#and wasn't an idiotic piece of shit himself just like fyodor#but nah again it just feels like we're supposed to side with him lmao even though fyodor was exactly right in everything he said#when your villain sounds more intelligent/correct than your hero and that's not an intentional writing choice..... that's not good bros!!!#anyway may your stupidity be purified in the soul of your dead bf fukuzawa šŸ™ and we get the true you back
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nessberry Ā· 11 months ago
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motherhood would only fix shen jiu if he was a girl mom tbh
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rainywithachanceofstars Ā· 2 years ago
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#buddy daddies#kazuki kurusu#miri unasaka#buddy daddies 1x10#for the better right?#just had to get this off my chest#as a child who prized access to my beloved people and routines and familiar places more than anything#i would have been absolutely DEVASTATED to find out that not only could I suddenly not go back to the place I had been living#but I would never see my parental figures who had been raising me for almost a year again#and not only that but they LIED TO MIRI about it being a SLEEPOVER to get her to go!#yeah four-year-olds wouldn't necessarily understand everything that makes that situation necessary#but they deserve to know in the larger sense that they're leaving so they have a chance to say goodbye#considering that Miri has already been sent away and rejected by one parent and that we've seen her abandonment issues before#I hate that they chose to spare the feelings of the adults by concealing the truth from Miri#it WON'T be 'easier on her' to hear that her papas told her she would have a sleepover and they will never come to get her#and she will never see her room or her clothes or eat Kazuki's cooking or play games with Rei again#it's not even a clean break! Misaki said she was going to keep Miri at the same daycare!#in worrying about Miri's safety and avoiding public meltdowns the adults are hurting her ability to trust in them#it never feels good to be manipulated like that no matter what the reason#but enough about me projecting#in which I babble to the world#memes
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- I understand how you feel, Yuma... and I don't want you to accept it. -
Rank 55: Yuma Jets!!
#Did you hear that? That's the sound of my soul shattering because of them#Astral's sorrowful gaze and Yuma's hopeless reaction#It doesn't matter if Yuma won the duel#there's no way for Astral to avoid his fate#and Astral has already accepted that dreadful future that was reserved to him#because it is the only way he could protect Yuma's world and his world as well#He wants to protect their worlds even at the cost of his existence#The fact that Astral sees himself as something small to sacrifice destroys me#for him his life is nothing compared to the safety of their worlds#and Yuma understands why he has to do that but how can he accept it?#how can he accept that there is nothing he can do to save Astral? How can he stand and watch Astral sacrifice himself?#it's unfair it's awful but there's nothing that they can do#that end was decided from the beginning#and it is made more painful because Astral has learned how to live thanks to Yuma and Yuma has got more attached to Astral day after day#and now Yuma has to watch Astral meet his terrible fate and Astral has to accept it because there is no way to fight it#the only thing Astral can do is ask Yuma to not lose his spirit his Kattobingu#to not accept that hopeless feelings to not let that sadness take over his heart#I want to hug Astral I want to hug both of them and never let them go#Every sentence in this scene is carved in my mind#especially Astral's ones because he accepts what will happen to him but there is also so much sadness in his words#he deserves to be happy I want him to be happy#yugioh zexal#yuma tsukumo#astral zexal#astral yugioh#zexal#yu gi oh zexal#ygo zexal#zexal manga#zexal manga spoiler
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pyrosomatic-metamorphosis Ā· 1 year ago
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something about qbad mentioning how much horror he put red team thru every time purgatory gets brought up... something about how proud dapper was of him.
like this is just my late-night read but- it feels like guilt qbad is trying to twist into pride. he keeps needling away at it. ā€œi killed them all, over and over and over again.ā€ ā€œthey were hunted by a monster.ā€
itā€™s like- reassurance. like a nail heā€™s trying o beat into his head. heā€™s had SO much trouble with legitimately hurting his friends, despite making that vow all the way back when the eggs first went missing, despite all the tree talk and the promises to save the kids no matter what. He never faltered with elq, and that protected them. He keeps faltering now. Sometimes he doesnt remember the code, or cucurucho, or skeppy. But that doesnt matter, right? Because heā€™ll protect the eggs. Heā€™ll be the monster. he is the monster. he can and he will protect them even as his seams start ripping and he keeps breaking further and further apart. even at his worst, heā€™ll do whatever he needs to protect the eggs.
heā€™ll be the monster. wont he?
#qsmp#he loves his friends and he wants to hurt them#he loves his friends and he doesnt want to hurt them#qsmp badboyhalo#ita like. He was torturing himself with the soul vultures because he kidnapped ron and threw down some scary magma mobs#and then forever changwd rhe whole fuckin narrative with that appreciation room and bad remembered the joy of community#and then cellbit. Where bad was like ā€˜i see him destroying himself to get the eggs back and i know where that road goesā€™#ā€™his loved ones dont want that to happen to him. i dont want that to happen to himā€™#and then purgatory gave him the first actal legitimate lead for finding their kids and he just had to get worse#and so he fucking swandived into self destructive violence (and the cc was purposefully playing qbad more recklessly violent)#(bbgirl couldve been lured into a trap so so easily)#ive lost my point somewhere now im just rotating qbbh in my brain and all the parallels#ah yes. But now theyre out of purgatory. And he refuses to regret what he did because he *had* to do what he could to save dapper#and the other eggs#because he has a huge complex about being the ā€˜only one who can protect the eggsā€™ because of a thousand little cuts and his mental health#issues. Like heā€™s Wrong bur its such a fascinating little direction for his character. Yes king burn thyself on the pure of protection#and then burn in a nuclear blast too because your self sufficiency left you to care for your egg alone#you can take care of the eggs. you can hurt your friends. look at how much you hurt your friends#look st the monster you are . your teeth are sharp and your claws are large#never mind that time you sent tina into a panic attack because you tried to recreate safety#never mind that your friends and family are worried about you#you are falling apart. but so many monsters survive the killing blow
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geddy-leesbian Ā· 3 months ago
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on top of this being the anniversary of the most traumatic day of my life which was followed by 6 weeks I was homeless and had a variety of traumatic things happen, we also got
me being due for my depo shot which means I will cry over things that are not worth crying about (the best example is probably the time I thought we had a frozen spaghetti meal in the freezer and started sobbing when it wasn't there)
finding out my estranged sister violated her probation (it's a long story) and even though I wouldn't have expected to have strong feelings about it it's still somehow like
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my mom's dad might be dying (I haven't seen him since I was very young so I don't view him as much more than "my mom's dad" and saying he's my grandpa wouldn't feel right to me even if it's technically correct) and it's like the thing with my sister where it's not something I would expect to have feelings about but still do
We went into our apartment complex's office to renew our lease and they said they'd email us all the lease stuff to sign online earlier this week and it's probably nothing but anxiety brain go brrrrrrrr they're not going to renew it and you'll be homeless again!!!!
I truly feel like Luis Serra in this moment:
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the bear trap is last years trauma, the ganado is everything more recent
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whatudottu Ā· 1 year ago
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Do y'all think object heads have a peculiar vision? Well I certainly do!
If DJSS is actually a supernova then assumption probably brings with it the idea they were a star, and being a star where it sends light in every direction and vision is directly correlated to light, what if that means omnidirectional vision?
#dj subatomic supernova#djss#no straight roads#nsr#fanart#a lot of notes i have in the image itself but i'll talk about them in the tags#i like to headcanon nova in youth was an o-class main sequence star aka big blue star that is bound to supernova#that shit is BRIGHT like 800000ish times our sun bright so even at a portable head size it's like a literal eyesore#kid to adult nova probably had to wear a helmet for others safety (an inconvenience to be sure)#but that would inherently condition them to have a more eye-based narrowed vision with a more frontal view of the world#which was helped a long way by being blinded by their own luminosity at the back and sides of that helmet#even if their vision was kinda dimmed and muted thanks to the visor being as shaded as it was#which is why when nova's a- well- supernova the interior of their hoodie not only is white but emits light#practically speaking it would be an inconvenience as the dj of a lowlit club but what if it was a habit that was a layover from being a sta#and to that: vision as a star and vision as a supernova are like two completely different logics#if a star is one celestial object that can view everything in every direction- a hot cloud of space dust is just trillions of staring eyes#compound eye having ass#from 20 or so years being blinded by their own light it does mean that not EVERYTHING has sight#let alone the 'used to be internal' contents of nova's head that kinda swirl in no particular direction#but whenever those blind spots happen to swirl their way up to the glass nova may get spotty vision#probably more a visual snow rather than any cataracts just because of the shear number of space dust particles#which means poor nova the dark gets littered with static and stargazing has a little more stars than they were used to#though it might also be because they aren't perpetually wearing sunglasses anymore but then again shades are different than visual snow#i have no idea where i learnt this (i think it was a humans are space orcs thing) that spacewalks can be utterly TERRIFYING#so i don't know if this was a nasa (or other space organisation documented) observation or general fear of space moment#but if folk are terrified with their binocular vision to float around in an ever endless void of stars and systems- how would nova feel?#i mean sure they utterly revel in space (they're an astrophysicist and ex-professor for it for god's sake) but they're now IN space#and it was just after bunkbed junction crashed their concert and took apparently their helmet and headphones as a trophy#bestie having omnidirectional vision in space is one thing it's another to literally have the place your vision comes from spread out!#i mean being the object that is their head it's not going to run completely away from them
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